Dial-up

Hmph... I really wishe I had a broadband connection... you know... using a dial-up connection on a slow computer could really affect the way you think.. it makes you think slower in the real world 'cause you're so used to being slow and the slower the loading speed gets, the more frustrating you get... AARGH!!!

X_x

Ok, so what's up with that last post? hmm... dunno exactly. Everytime I make an entry in this blog its as if something prevents me from saying what I really wanna say. really, it drives me nuts...

anyway, for the record I'd like to post in this blog about nothing at all... I's just like to try myself on what I might write if my brain was as empty as a can of Century Tuna...hmm...yummy, come to think of it, damn I'm hungry... hmph,... I always am.

anyway, I really hope I could borrow a drumset before the acquaintance party in arellano this friday. And I really hope we could jam before all is too late (actually it is a bit too late). Damn, I wish I was skilled in -playing the drums so I couldn't feel any tension and look cool on the day of the gig. piff...

Moreover (yeah, I actually thought of a paragraph opener aside from starting it with "anyway")
I really hope I could get a job soon. With all these job opportunities around me I wish I wouldn't run out of them...

ciao...

hm.m..mm.m.m.m.

Oh and also the title is an emoticon... ehehe...uhmm.. nothing....

WHOA!

First post in how many months!!! And it's not about any lay out change! whew, this must mean something...

Anyway, I dunno what the heck this post is about despite my efforts of sounding cool and trying to come up with a decent intro to my post. Hmm... how unprofessional... Now where'd I start? oh yeah... well right now I've never been so depressed in my whole life. Last night I was so deep in thought that there came to a point that I thought that I was worthless and let alone meaningless. It was some kind of emotional triptych that losers go in to when they channel their self-pity into anger directed at themselves. Hmph! What am I saying anyway? It's as if I don't have the luxury of somebody to run into. It's as if I were some kinda freak who blames it on to somebody or something whenever things don't go my way. It's as if I've tried hard enough. Hahaha, of course, after all I am who I am...


hmm... Lame.... Who am I anyway? I'm confused, or should I say, I want to be confused? I dunno. Who really is the real Me? the one who I think I am or the one others think of me? whatever it is, It's lame. Why? Maybe I'm too dependent on others often I need somebody to tell me how it is when I already knew the answer all along. Maybe because I was born stupid and couldn't do anything right? I dunno. Anyway this depressing thing really tires me. I'd rather think about it alone than to publish it on a lame blog that talks about nothing but layout changes. Why did I post this shit anyway? I dunno... 'cause maybe, just maybe in the back of my mind I thought this was a good thing to post.

hmph... lame...